Discipline is not one of my strengths. At all. Especially when it comes to food and exercise. It sounds cliche, but I have tried a few different diets, including Paleo, calorie counting, and a VERY strict diet made for people who basically want to train to be in bikini/fitness shows...no, I did not want to be in a bikini show, but an old friend who helped me did...However, I was never disciplined enough to see it through for longer than 30 days to a few months. I lost weight but gained it back when I returned to what I normally ate. I also hated how stressed out it made me feel, and confused as to why I was cutting out certain foods that seemed perfectly okay and natural to me. Some of these strict plans and various diets, such as Paleo, work really well for some people and I have nothing against that. It just did not work for me, and since it didn't, I needed to figure out what did.
I decided that I was not going to just accept the fact that I am not good at discipline. It is something I need to work on, but I can take control of my habits and lifestyle, especially when it comes to taking care of my body. Hence my new plan - all about balance and moderation.
Why do I want to lose weight? I'm not obese, diabetic, or have terrible cholesterol. I am rather healthy and have never had major medical issues (thank God). However, I have never felt extremely fit or like I could comfortably parade around in a 2-piece bathing suit..my family genes are also somewhat against me. Both sides of my family have diabetes and one side struggles with obesity. I also have gained weight over the past couple years due to being in my late-twenties, a lower back injury, and adjusting (still) to working full time and trying to figure out when to exercise and how to cook for most of my meals.
What are my goals? I want to have a healthy BMI and body fat percentage, feel energetic and healthy, and take care of my body. I don't want to feed it junk and suffer the consequences later. Slowly but surely, a lot of packaged, heavily-produced (?) food grosses me out and does not feel like real food. I also feel like crap after eating it. I also want to feel and look fit. I don't need a perfect body, I don't care about looking like a model or having a six-pack. I want to feel good in my clothes, be strong, and not worry about feeling conscious about my mid-section (my problem area).